Can't Smile~~

As what is written on my blog title....
I really can't smile at the moment....
I got a job... sum job which i nvr thought of doing...
jz the sake of the income...
so i applied... n tried for the interview...
n i din actually thought that i got thru n got the job....

when the agent called...
n he congratulate me for the job...
surprisingly.. i was shock... n my smile just fade away... as in gone...
I don't feel happy at all...
but confuse... VERY CONFUSED....

and now... i'm feeling very depressed....
Stresss... n even have nightmare over that job which i applied for....
i try finding friends to talk with...
but no one seems to give me the guidance or advise which I really wanted to hear or feel better...
My parents keep forcing me to take up this job...
but my heart juz doesn't feel right...only regrets....

 I duno did i do the right decision? am I suppose to satisfied my parents needs?
or should i go for what i really want?

I feel so hopeless and lost...
I just duno how to deal with this...
Mayb i should juz take up dis job? which i dun think i'll be happy with it for the rest of my working days?
or find smtg which i feel very interested in where i can be happy??
my heart really doesn't feel right at this...
I have been so down since they offer me this job....I JUZ CANT SMILE...

i really duno what should i do.... i only wish i can have an event job.....T.T