无业游民+矛盾

have been back to Malaysia for 2 months now..
yet not found any job...
the problem is.. at the moment..
i have somethings to do..
1st is my adv diploma convo..
now being a driver for my bro SPM..
later december have promise to go Genting with mum..
dun forget i have Japanese class to take too..
i noe.. my own excuse...

yet they are calling me to look for job..
i noe i shld n by now shld actually went for few interview..
but the fact is..
i dun even have my resume ready yet..sigh

i dislike life which actually get question by people..
they dun seem to let u go..
especially those aunty n uncle..

how do i put it?
finding a job is my own business which i consider..
it has nothing to do v u either..
even if i earn the money..
i'm not going to feed u..
so y bother telling me find job and keep on asking me same thing again n again..

my future is to do with me..
so what? if i live poorly also nothing to do with u..
y keep on bothering me with same question?
it because u got nothing to do.
doesn't mean my life and future need to be question by u~~

life is like that..
once you are born into this world..
question will always be around u~~
even when you are not born..
question like izit a girl or a boy wil jz pop in their mind..
then people asking your name..
then when u going to start school..
what you learn...
later.. they question your result n doing in school..
later graduated from high school..
dey wil ask what you want to continue and be as..
after u graduated from Uni,
they started to question your working life..
well, after u start working..
they will juz ask...
when are you going to get married?
later u r married..
they will ask you when are you going to give birth..
after being pregnant..
they will question where is your children going to study..
and same question of life goes on and on and on...

man ...this uncle aunty cant stop gossiping n questioning?
life is frustrated and annoyed v this kind of ppl...
even own parents are not as annoyed as them..=.=
they just want to know everything..
i juz dun understand what does this have to do with them..
its not their life, its not their business either..
why don't they juz go and bother their own children?

haiz..if i dun find a job now, doesnt mean i'm not goin to...
y giving me the stress?  give me some time la..WTH
if i can do so.. the only question i'm goin to ask them is..
WHEN R U GUYS GONNA SHUT UP / STOP QUESTIONING ABOUT MY LIFE?

so my phobia now is facing those uncle n aunties...
i cannot stop listening to them bla bla bla bla...
i sometimes wish that i was deaf...=.=
or i sometimes wish that they are mute.. seriously..
when can they just leave me alone? JEEZZZ...

anyway...
i really very confuse at the moment..
since i have things to do..
if i go for job interview n successful get a job..
everything has to be reschedule/ re-plan..
i dislike this kind of feelings..
because...
i dun like NO plannings...
i cannot make things right..=(
this is so frustrating...
I REALLY DUNNO WHAT TO DO...